Posts Tagged ‘bipolar’

The Alpha and Omega

Posted: October 22, 2015 in Crazy Life of Mine
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The other day I was sitting at the stoplight behind a vehicle with sorority symbols.  It got me to thinking how God is the Alpha (beginning) and the Omega (end). It was a good reminder that what God sees is the whole of my life from the beginning to the end. 

It is comforting to know that my life was planned by Him and that he knows what will happen each and every moment.

When things feel big I try to remember that I serve the Alpha and the Omega and it puts things in perspective!

I’m a cracked pot!

Posted: March 17, 2014 in Crazy Life of Mine
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Two things I know tonight: 1. I don’t fit in this world and 2. It’s okay! My favorite quote in the whole world is as follows:

“If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.”  – C.S. Lewis

I have been intensely aware of this “longing” in my soul from the time I was about in junior high or high school. Life is not about what we do in the day to day but in what we do that is eternal.

So when I begin to get bogged down in the many details of life I try to remind myself of two things 1. It’s not about me and 2. It’s all about Him. Him – God.

So what did I do today for the eternal? We were created to live in the Garden and Adam and Eve blew it. Now we live in broken vessels that are dying every day. I’m in this vessel and not, both at the same time. I am reminded tonight that the journey is not about the mundane: jobs, kids etc but about being Jesus to the world who doesn’t yet know Him. It’s about going out of your way to talk to that co-worker and be interested in them even though you want to just roll into a little ball and protect yourself.

Today I am both thankful that I have bipolar and also looking forward to the day when I won’t have to struggle against this body and my mind. To be cliche, I am looking forward to the end of the “race” of life. I will run, walk, crawl into the arms of Jesus someday when my broken vessel gives out for the last time.

Lord let my pot continue to be cracked to let Your love flow out from me to others who need you.